It’s OK Thursday!
So it’s time to be honest…
Wow… what an insane past few weeks for me here in Orlando! I know, I know… I’ve been M.I.A. for quite some time, occasionally popping in out of guilt, for lack of a better word.
So you must be wondering… what in the world has been on my mind, right?
Well, I don’t think it’s much of a secret that I have not really been enjoying my College Program at Disney World lately, it’s been pretty rough for the following reasons:
1. I miss my family and friends
2. Living with 7 girls is insane!
3. My managers are not that fabulous
4. Housekeeping is a strenuous job and sucks!
5. It’s too hot to run outside unless it’s dark (which is NOT safe!)
And many more… I’m sure!
So over the past few weeks or so, I’ve been contemplating quitting my program and heading home to find a salary based job. The pay isn’t good, I still have my rent back home and they take my rent here out of my paycheck every week. I’m graduated with a degree, so I don’t need this for an internship. This was somewhat of a filler for me between graduation and a big girl job. So I was bound and determined to quit and pack my bags and head home.
I also struggled with staying though because I didn’t want to feel like a quitter (because I’m not!) and I didn’t want to regret leaving and closing this door for good because I wouldn’t be able to come back and I would miss my roommates and I may choose to work for Disney sometime in the future and I didn’t want to bail out of my commitment.
You can ask my friends, family, boyfriend, and probably everyone else in between, that I went back and forth a million times – it was a vicious cycle! One second I’d be dead set on going home, then change directions immediately and be dead set on staying.
So what did I choose? Well I decided… I only have three and a half more months, so I think I can stick it out. I’m going home again this weekend and I’m going home again in May for my sisters graduation, then I only have TWO MONTHS left, so surely I can make it the last 2 months. This decision has caused me tons of distress though and therefore has led to my lack of blogging.
I have some fun things I’m joining in on over the next few months here that I’ll be blogging about, and my attitude has improved a lot, so even though my posts have been dreadful the past few weeks, please continue reading and stay posted, because I promise, this journey is about to get better!!
Happy Monday lovelies, Hope you all are having a wonderful start to the week!
It’s OK Thursday!